Saturday, December 26, 2009

I'll Meet You Somewhere Else With The Boys

“Do you want me to just drop them off at the corner or what?”

“No, I’ll meet you at the theater.”

Her voice carried a hint of sarcasm.

I told her two days before she is not to come to the house any longer.

She was pacing the parking lot, cigarette smoke trailing. She looked irritated, a touch angry, and miserable.

I pulled beside her, the right side door beside her car next to her and the boys. She came around. I rolled the window down.

Her face has aged.

“I can take Isaac to his appointment on Wednesday if you want.”

It was just something to say. We had already discussed how and when and who was getting Isaac to the gastroenterologist’s.

“Don’t worry about it. Anything else you need?”

“I don’t want you to think this is a criticism of you, but it may be one thing that is causing Isaac allergic reactions... You should really watch the food in the refrigerator. I’ve noticed sometimes you have let food go bad.”

Suppressing irritation, I shrugged. Said nothing.

“I hope you are better. I hope things are easier for you.”

“I’ll be all right.”

The boys got in. I drove off. She watched after us, her brows furrowed.

She has been trying to draw me into conversation, trying to gain some sort of ground over the lines I have drawn around my home, my life. Lines dividing her from me.

It has been over a year since our divorce. I’ve accommodated her to make things easier for her to see Isaac, well... for him to see her. She has exploited it to make her presence a continued part of my home... an awkward, and somewhat manipulative, presence.

Another step in this journey...


Karen said...

I'm glad you're still writing. I am back after a VERY LONG hiatus.

So sorry for the divorce...I know that wasn't easy. I look forward to hearing from you gain.

Peace always....

Ame said...

you're making good, hard choices. my ex tries to infiltrate my life in different ways, but the results are the same ... and how i handle them must be the same - draw the lines and stick to them.

Amrita said...

Its been a year already-my goodness how fast time flies. And you 've been through a lot.

Anonymous said...

As long as you have children she will always be a part of your life but you get to set the boundaries....
Good job!!

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Jada's Gigi said...

I've been out of the blog scene for a while now. hard to believe its been a whole year for you. I hope your Christmas was blessed and your New Year is full of new adventures.

Anonymous said...

you're doing good mr. will!


Judas Hate said...

Hi Will.

It occurred to me that you might not have received my text.
Thank you so much for the CD!
Glorious music and beautiful artwork:-)

What a wonderful gift!

Keep doing what you're doing and hang in there my friend.


Marvin the Martian said...

Gah. Shunning is so much simpler.