Saturday, June 20, 2009

Siem Reap

I spent too much today.

Here and there I got some good deals. Here and there I was tricked, ripped off.

It doesn't matter.

I hired Somnang to drive us around Siem Reap, Cambodia. We breakfasted and Somnang (which means "lucky"as he was born in a lucky year, 1975, and his mother was hoping her luck was turning since the father and four previous siblings had died, and perhaps this boy would live... she was right) took us in his dtuk dtuk to the temple ruins of Angkor Wat.

When we first got out of the little vehicle I was immediately surrounded by many children, all trying to sell me something. They were charging far too much, but my guilt, of being from a wealthy country, prevented me from negotiating.

It was a mistake.

As one fellow was telling me the virtues of his book on the ruins, one little girl kept trying to sell me a beer. She asked my name and I told her. She took that as a promise.

"OK, Will. I wait for you buy book then you buy something from me. OK? You have to buy from me, Will."

I bought the book. Then I bought a beer from her. She couldn't have been over 12.

That was my second mistake.

The children pressed close. I bought some post cards for far too much from a little one about five years old.

Children started pressing closer... six, eight, twelve of them. Hands were reaching out... running over my pockets. Suddenly I thought I might lose my wallet and my passport. I reached into a pocket, pulled out all the change I had, and threw it twenty feet away. Two thirds of the children ran after the money.

"That was mean,Will" the 12 year old said. "Only the big kids get that money. You buy more from me now."

"No thank you," I said, and strode up to the guard at the ruins entrance, showed my pass and went quickly onto the causeway.

The ruins were amazing. Though the heads were missing from all the statues, and the buildings were pockmarked from the bullets which flew between 1974 and 1979, it was still impressive.

Apparently there had been forty towers, but after the Kmer Rouge had finished, only 12 remain.










When I finished my tourist thing at the ruins of Angkor Wat we went back to the dtuk dtuk. Most of the children were gone. But the 12 year old reappeared.

"Hi Will! You buy water from me?"

"No thank you."

"You buy bracelets? Maybe for girlfriend?"

"No thank you."

"Maybe you want buy me a beer? I be nice to you."

My stomach lurched. I couldn't believe what she was offering.

"No! I don't want to buy anything from you. Please, I want to go now.

"Come on Will. Buy me beer."

"No thank you. I don't want to."

"You mean, Will."

It was too much for me. I whirled around on her.

"No! You are poor, and you are desperate, and you are a disrespectful little girl and I will not buy you a beer or anything!"

I headed for the dtuk dtuk as quickly as I could.

"You mean man Will!" she called after me.

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Dad and Chicken went back to their rooms and I decided to let Somnang show me a good place to eat. It was at a place called The Temple Club because parts of its walls were from a 900 year old temple.

I had shrimp and squid and rice in Cambodian spices. I had the waiter take a Coke out to Somnang.

And I was a little lonely. I'm not used to eating alone, being alone. A lawyer my age from Los Angeles allowed me to share a beer with her so I could have a little conversation. She told me about the U.N. Tribunal going on she was going to see... A trial against former Kmer Rouge leaders for crimes against humanity. She said 1.5 million people had been killed in Cambodia. She said that 50% of the population was under 21 and 37% were less than fifteen.

A young man came up begging. He was missing a foot, a hand, and three fingers from the other hand.

"Land mine," the lawyer told me.

A little girl tried to sell me the same post cards I had bought earlier at Angkor Wat.

I paid my tab, and Somnang told me it was beautiful to watch the sunset from the lake, so we went there.

The boat was expensive. I was the sole customer.

As I passed along the canal to the lake my guide, Kah, ponted out points of interest.


Extreme poverty rolled by as I sat in a comfortable chair, being ferried out to watch the sunset.


There is a large village living in various houseboats along the canal. They cluster around a tower far out in the lake during the dry season, and are pushed up against the distant mountain during the monsoon. Today they move from the docks at the mountain to the lake to fish, or raise fish, or crocodiles, or eels, or sell goods from ramshackle stores. There were boats under repair. There were schools supplied by various organizations... ramshackle houseboats painted bright blue.

There was a store that sold school supplies. Thin little books, tablets of paper, pencils. I bought $30 worth.

Apparently the Cambodian government has given every family a television set, so they can watch the government operated television stations. And every year during the monsoons the government gives every family 40 kilograms of rice to help them get through the driving storms until they can fish again.
I showed the kids at the school my iPhone. They were amazed at the features. I played music for them. Bach, Ray Charles, Bob Marley. They liked Tom Petty the best. I also let them take pictures of each other. The teacher was very impressed that I have the Bible, all of Shakespeare, and twenty literary classics stored in it.

There was a woman begging alongside the floating store. I bought some food and gave it to them.


The man in the middle is their teacher. Children go to school three times a day. Five hours in the morning, three hours in the afternoon, then maybe two more after dark. Most stop going to school after the 4th grade as they need to help their families catch fish.


I spent too much today. I'll have to skimp a bit on the rest of the trip.


I don't care.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

An Ordinary Life

When I was I kid I wanted to be an astronaut or an oceanographer. I wanted to discover mighty things, see things never seen before, I wanted a remarkable life.

As a very young man I tried tried to be interesting and unusual. I went off for times hiking and hitchhiking, eating wild plants. I joined an ashram. I became a cook in a vegetarian restaurant. Heavy equipment operator, milkman (home delivery), graphic artist, small magazine editor, anything which seemed interesting. I had many adventures.

As I grew older I found I really wanted ordinary things. I life making a living, raising a family, having but one wife.

Today I am on the other side of the planet in a cultural very different. Most of the differences are fun, interesting. The people are kind, sweet, large hearted. They show kindness and respect to each other. Are gentle.

Mostly.

Aside from the trivial TV programming and bad acting, aside from schmaltzy songs in an unknown language, the sex thing bothers me the most here. I felt it a little unnerving to be asked by so many women on the street if I'd like to be their boyfriend for the night. Once five of them had wiggled their way to my table, cajoled a drink from me, and made me a deal for 1,000 baht each to all be my girlfriend for the night.

The next day, on the way to Northeast Thailand, the fellow driving us around kept looking at me, smiling. I thought perhaps I wasn't supposed to wear a hat on a car and swept it off. That wasn't it.

He said "You very handsome man."

Later, in the tiniest of villages, a man came up to me, and instead of shaking hands, he grabbed my forearm, pulled me close and said "You have very nice arms!!"

"I'm rather fond of them myself," I said as I pulled away.

Sex is constant here.

"You want short time or long time?" Women call out. (An hour or a night?)

Last night's bad dream was obviously about working through those ideas. I dreamt I was being ridiculed for the work I had been doing, some sort of installing a section of freeway, estimating and overseeing a project. I wanted to quit, they derided me and laughed. I was embarrassed.

Instead of defending my work, I remeasured everything, checked quality, set things away neatly for future work, packed my things, and left. I quit, but on terms that were mine.

I did not debate who I was, what my work had been. I made sure it was the best I could do, left it in the best condition, and left with a smile and my integrity intact.

I feel a little like that while under this cultural bombardment.

I'm a bit homesick. I'd like some familiar, comfortable things. But I am having an adventure that questions who I am, what I believe, what my integrity stands for. It's exciting to be here, and exciting to still be myself.

I first posted this yesterday in Buri Ram, Thailand. Now I'm editing and polishing the post in Siem Reap, Cambodia.

In Bangkok the stream of prostitutes (I'm sure there were far more than 200 between the place I had a drink with those women and my room two blocks away) seemed a part of the culture. Something I tried my best to not take offense at. But here in Cambodia, it's worse. Poverty and desperation seem to tinge everything. I blush to think of the list the fellow in the Dtuk-dtuk offered me if I wanted. Ëverything very cheap, special for you!"

I wanted to live a life with a family and a faithful spouse. Now my spouse is gone, and my family is moving on. I'm not going to be an astronaut or an oceanographer, but I love my profession, I feel honored in it. I feel honored to simply lie an ordinary life.

It's not a remarkable life.

But I feel an ordinary life is exactly what I want. I want an ordinary life, doing ordinary things, with as much integrity as I can. I want to grow, become wiser, gentler, kinder, and not worry about the influences of the world.

I've heard of organizations who are trying to help people in places such as this. Right now, it seems like that is like trying to empty an ocean with a thimble. The issues are so large. Wealth and poverty, freedom and oppression, kindness and evil.

I don't believe I am made for mighty things. Unless... living my life, being who I am... no... aspiring to be the best of who I can be... that is what I am made for.

I want an ordinary life.

New Temple
(when I can get a new charger for that camera, I'll show you something freaky within)

That was kind of cool

My mystery meat soup, and my dad

11th Century Temple










Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Bangkok - Day 2

Me, Dad, Chicken (his girlfriend)










Wealth...


...and poverty



(Forgot to show you this yesterday)


How we got around the canals


That's a diesel truck engine on that steering oar/propeller



: )


Playing with a cobra


"Thanks for fixing my bike!"


Ancient Temple








Silk Shirt: 200 baht ($5.69)



Ever have pork on a waffle?


Monday, June 15, 2009

Bangkok

Notre Dame, Paris I slipped away from the tourists and joined the worshippers in Notre Dame in Paris. Prayer and communion in a spaced of filtered colored light shining down from centuries ago.

escargot

soy cowboy... nightlife around the corner. Not my thing, but I showed a bartender how to fix various drinks with bolended whiskey. He thanked me. I told him "Mypen lye!" (No big deal!)

Amid strange smells, beauactiful high rises and huts in squalor are the most interestng people, smells, sights and sounds. Across the street young women gesture with friendly grins, inviting me in for a "Thai massage".

I saw a man dart into the street and pick up a coin, worth about 12 cents, and catch up to the motocylist who had dropped it.
The people are very kind, and this is quite the adventure... we're going to go down to the docks and hire a boat to look at the city from the water perspective.
I'm exchanging regular emails with my kids...
Talk to you soon!
Love... The Curious (extremely) Servant (AKA Will... as opposed to Won't).




This morning I a street vendor tried to convince me to eat grubs, four inch beetles, and fried crickets for breakfast. Maybe another time.




I did have escargot in France yesterday. I orders a double order (12 instead of six), and liked it well enough to order 12 more.















Sunday, June 14, 2009

Delighted