I need to get to bed... but all afternoon I have spent every moment with my sons... talking with them, praying... and I wonder... Is this right? Am I doing the right thing?
I know, it will give Jeremiah security, independence, I won't be such a dominant factor in his life and he can be relaxed about his choices (he always, they always, seem to avoid making choices, fearing I won't approve... I think they were always that way... somehow feeling there was a risk because they were adopted...).
I know I am doing the right thing. Somehow it feels like I am abandoning him... (though I will be a presence in his life for as long as I draw breath).
Their mom... their dog... now Jeremiah is moving on...
About Me
- Curious Servant
- I have adopted two boys from Haiti. Both are mentally handicapped. One is is now 20, the other 18. I divorced my wife of 28 years a few years ago and have just remarried, a woman from Belize. I find beauty in many things... many, many things (nature, art, people, space...) and that helps me to survive my deep empathy for so many who suffer. I like to write, and I've written quite a bit on my blogs. I have been thinking about writing a book. Unsure if it should be about the things I have experienced, or fiction (I have an interesting plot line worked out). I'm pretty open about things. I like blended whiskey, but I never have more than two drinks... usually just one, and not often at that. I have had many adventures. Makes me a little different. (Odd?)
4 comments:
Letting go in any shape, form or time is so painful. You will be there.
becky
Trust yourself. You've examined every side of this and prayed through it.
Yes, Jeremiah has experienced more loss than most others his age face. The thing is, you are establishing community for him. Allowing him to develop what he needs to outlive you (sorry... ). What an important gift.
Will, The timing and situation is a huge answer to prayer.
And all three begin a new life....
I think of you and your family daily.
I wish you and them the best...always.
Forever thankful for your kindness and friendship,
Justin
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