Sunday, April 5, 2009

Simple Journal Entry...

Just a regular journal entry...

Last weekend was wonderful. Isaac stayed at home and Jeremiah and I went to central Oregon. It was far better at that youth camp than I dreamt it could be.

I don’t know if Jeremiah could end up living there... but if he did, he would be happy, productive. It may not be possible because it is unclear at this point if the funds that seem to be coming Jeremiah’s way would cover his staying there...

But, perhaps.

Meanwhile... I was fairly certain that we would not be able to meet the June deadline for finding a group home for Jeremiah. There were no openings, no responses to requests, and his name would be passed by...

But, this Wednesday Jeremiah and I, and Brenda, are touring a group home. It is as much about them interviewing us as we them. But if he does get in to this place, he would have access to these funds which would take care of him all his life...

I met with B this past week... told her frankly how I felt things should go with Jeremiah and what I want of her in terms of making it happen. She agreed.

It may be that within a month Jeremiah will be living elsewhere...

But there are many things to understand, agree to, consider, pray over...

This is huge.

All of this is huge.

My entire life has been a tremendous shuffling act the last few years.

The last couple of days I have spoken openly, frankly, with both of my sons. They understand as best they can what the choices are, what it means.

Aside from the possible change in Jeremiah’s situation, but I have felt my heart lighten.

I am less and less anxious about life, about what will happen next.

I am more and more grateful for my situation, for my life.

I haven’t a clear idea about what will happen next, but things are moving about me...